I’m sad because you’re not here & you could be. Like it could be that fucking simple, your skin could be against mine right now, I could be at peace again.
I guess I just miss you so much that it hurts to breathe but I know we’re both on different journeys & I’ve got to let you move on but it’s not that easy.
Breaking every bone in my body would hurt less than pretending like your absence isn’t eating at me.
Where are you? I hope it’s beautiful. I hope she’s beautiful too, I hope she makes not having me around hurt less.
It was never supposed to hurt like this.
There’s tears spilling from my eyes & worthless words pouring from my lips but you’re not here to hold my shaking hands & tell me that I’m just a crazy girl, that it’s gonna be okay."